At McDonald's Again in a Conditional Situation, Hooking Up with Their Wi-Fi

Santa Rosa, New Mexico - came up out of the canyon (Wells Canyon of the Candaian River) and back in to civilication. I wana go back - but I ran out of beer. Right out there in the grassy grassy plains is this 1500 chasm - but I don't recommend going down there without ahigh ground clarance . Clayton Lakes donsarur tracks and the hightest point in Oklahoma. Still have'n had a freezng night - 72 derees - 43 last night. I have enough fire wood for at least a week, I can get enough beer to last as long also - the problem is the ice - it only last two to three days. Now if it would only get cold and freeze I would'nt have to worrry about that - just snuggle but the sleeping bag and read for it's a three dog night (but wait I've only got this little lap dog and he needs me to keep him warm).


It is easy to stomach
What we ruthlessly exclude
      From our diet
Disgust must remain
      Inert
Relentlessly giving preference
      To lofty mountains
      Over swampy lowlands
Ignorance after all is our
      Best guide

The objects and places and mannerism that constitute our life-world are ‘intentionally’ representational. What culture traditionally provided was taken-for-granted custom, a form of necessity – hence of reality. Options are profoundly, if subtly different and so are the people who live among and through them – Thomas De Zengotita – Mediated: How the media shapes the world and the way you live in it, 2006 p15

Authority always knows for we are the authority
The Super-ego knows all
The Super-ego torments
       The sinful ego

We are all method actors now – Thomas De Zengotita – Mediated: How the media shapes the world and the way you live in it, 2006 p11

It is centenary of the sinking of the Titantic (or soon will be) and now the story is coming out that it was a preventable cover-up – a technical mistake by the helmsman and the highest ranking surviving officer did not want to embarrass the White Star Line. It seems that it was common practice to have two set of steering mechanisms – the backup system was based on that used by the older sailing ships and turned in the opposite direction from the modern one. When the helmsman was given directions to veer away from the iceberg he seems to have used the backup system and operated in the manner of the primary system – thus he turned into the iceberg rather than away from it. The ship could still had four minutes left when the mistake was discovered but no order was give to stop or turn the vessel while there was still time to avoid catastrophic damage (it might have stayed afloat until rescue efforts could have been affected

There is only so much a human being can pay attention to in a given moment, obviously, that’s what “paying attention” means, for God’s sake – Thomas De Zengotita – Mediated: How the media shapes the world and the way you live in it, 2006 p202

I am in a blue funk – I was jovial and outgoing and now I’m standoffish and aloft. I wonder why everyone seems to avoid me. I’m trying to make contact and when you most want it intimacy is withdrawn. I turn to my writing. It makes life bearable for the moment. For a few moments you are present. You are here. You are not wishing that you could skip into some future moment – a time when you might feel a little bit connected. I am not wishing at all and that is nice. I am just slowing taking one breath at a time – breath in, breath out. It is a summer evening and it has just showered. It is the first shower in a while. I can smell the dust. I can smell roses. I am transposed to a pond under a full moon. I am walking the perimeter with a flashlight and a stick with a locust thorn attached. You shine the flashlight into theri eyes and while the frog is transfixed you pierce his lungs with your gig and he lets out an ugh.

You have a coffee can full of crawdads. You dangle a ball of bread dough on a string. You have an old mayonnaise jar full of fireflies. You have been stuffing June bugs into the mailbox beside the front door. They are clamoring out. You are stuffing them back in by the handful. It is a hot muggy night. Phil bangs on the upright piano. Dave is turning the pages. Scott is off for his first day of work. Michael is pessimistic about getting his parking pace back. My mental state? I’m tired and listless. My eyelids feel heavy. I walk across the park munching on French fired right out of the bag.

I come to you / wearing one shoe / what could I do / the other one was on my prick – Frank O’Hara – The Collected Poems, 1971 p380

Americans way underestimate the concentration of wealth in this country. Thy have the sense that the top 20% control no more than 30% of the wealth. They believe that it would be un-American for them to own more than 60% of the wealth. They are ignorant of the actual concentration, which is 84% and believe this group’s tax breaks (which already average $210,000) should be extended.

You would think that the best things in life were free / but they’re the worst, even the air is dirty / and its this “filth of life” that coats us against pain – Frank O’Hara – The Collected Poems, 1971 p385

The only important history is the history that you do not know

This century changed into a bird ascends like Jesus / Devils in pits raise their heads to watch it – Apollainaire

ANALYTICAL THEORY


Hunger is self-preservation
Love is the preservation
Of the species


Ego – instincts and object–
Instincts confront each other
Ego – instincts have no
Libidinal purpose
Neurosis is the triumph
Of the ego


All contradictory theories
Have been subsumed by
The concept of Narcissism


Then I invented the Pleasure
Principle


I drew the conclusion, that, besides the instinct to preserve living substances
and to join it into ever larger units, there must exist another, contrary instinct
seeking to dissolve those unites and bring them back to the primeval, inorganic
state - Sigmund Freud


Hence the death instinct
A reconciliation allowing
An explanation based on:


The concurrent or mutually opposing action of these two instincts


Restrictions on the Eros
Result in division
The instinct outward
Towards aggression
And destruction
Destroying the other rather
Than the self

Maybe – as with nature, so with culture – there’s a limit – Thomas De Zengotita – Mediated: How the media shapes the world and the way you live in it, 2006 p261

Atheists and agnostics it turns out know more about religion (even the religion of those who profess it) than do any other groups in America. The best educated tend to be the most knowledgeable. Atheists and agnostics tend to be relatively well educated. Jews and Normans ranked just below them in knowledge about religion – followed by white evangelical Protestants, white Catholics, white mainline Protestants, unaffiliated (but not atheist or agnostic), black Protestants and Latino Catholics according to Pew Research. But this begs the question – does education tend to decrease traditional religious belief or does an native curiosity lead to higher educations and hence a diminution of traditional belief? Maybe there is no casual relationship (although a correlation) between educations and beliefs? We just don’t know. We may never know.


If you add infinity to infinity, you get infinity. If you mix the sublime and the creepy, what you end up with is creepy – Roberto Bolańo – The Savage Detective, 1998 p450