Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Rubber Duckies


The campground host came by after dark. Knock, knock, knock - he rapped on the side of my trailer. The dog was up and yapping. I went outside without any shoes. I turned on the light. He wanted to know how I was doing. He seemed too want to chat but I knew that was not his real purpose. I saw the bible that he carried under his arm. He the thin bony man typical (except those who are obese) of the South who only knows (if he knows of any) the “good” book. I knew it was not a novel. I let him chatter. I politely replied to his questions. He chattered on until he was satisfied that he could get to the purpose of his visit. Now will come the part that I had been expecting, “May I ask you something personal,” he said? “Go ahead,” I replied. “May I pray with you?” “No,” I say, “I would rather not.” He is taken aback but only for a second and he responds, “I understand, I understand.” I say, “Will thanks for stopping by.” And he says, “God bless you now.” I say, “And you to.” And off he goes into the darkness unto the next campsite making his rounds.

It’s raining. It started last night at dusk. From a gentle rain a thunderstorm can grow. It rumbles. It roars. The rain comes down: plick-plick, plick-plick. It had started as an evening shower. It’s now after dark. I can hear the rain outside. Coffee is reheated. Aw, that was a close one – light flashes. Three second later the boom. Near misses are deceptive. The rain continues – bling, bling bling

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I’m at the Laundromat
            In Swansboro NC
The washerwoman wants
            To know what it is
                        That I’m reading
I had stood there with my hands
            Akimbo upon my hips
And she stood there imitating me
            Laughing
It’s a novel that takes place
            Around here
I didn’t know then
            How right I was
The washerwoman in the
            Novel (also in Swansboro
                        This particular Swansboro)
            Weights two-hundred and twenty
This one was tall and skinny
Her daughter and her friend
            Were standing outside
            Sucking on the straws off
                        Supersized cokes
Schoolgirls, real whores
Camp Lejuene was next door
            At the end of the month
            The boys got paid
And the Rev. Goodlin Plenty
            Got half his head blown
            Off by a jealous husband
                         With a Ruger Redhawk
Which had a seven-and-one-half inch
                        Scoped barrel
Then Lula and that two-hundred and
            Twenty pound washerwoman
            Got down on their bellies
And snaked out of the Revival tent
Thump thump thump – fifty calibers
            Zip over their metal helmets
            As they laugh
Young southern killers drink
            J. W. Dant according to Gifford
While driving Dusters with NASCAR
            Numbers on the doors
Dreaming of bashing someone’s
            Head in with the back
                        Of a shovel
I finished drying my load
She was talking to someone
            And laughing
So many rubber duckies
            Rotating around the ocean
But none of’em with my number

Post-Liberalism: the left without access to the State

“Sort of” a God

The beavers were splashing and the coyotes were howling last night. The lake is low, marked by a rim of bare shore. The beaver lodges are out of the water. I didn’t get much sunshine yesterday. It was too dark to even read. I am anxious to get out and stretch my legs
It is light. The rumbling is getting further off. There is now only a steady drizzle. Now the sun has come out. The clouds are moving to the north. The picnic tables are beginning to dry. There is still big puddle of water in front of the  stove. I haven’t made coffee yet. I go for a walk. I notice a sign. I read it: Bear country – dogs aggravate bears, keep them on a leash. The bathhouse is locked. Let my day commence. I am ready for whatever comes my way. Nothing does.

Governmentalization (Foucault): the remaking of the state on the model of the firm and the remaking of the complex moral subject (the individual) into “speekers” of human capital” who self-invest to appreciate their value”

All the while singing
We wondered when we would stop
We knew at sometime we would stop singing
We knew we would then stop wandering
And still we are singing
And still we are wondering

Every rule is a rule until it is no longer a rule

The US federal government spends $100 million a years on abstinence-only sex education

The young are naturally overcome by lust, but the middle-aged who show an undue interest in it are more likely to be accused of idle lechery. The sins of middle are melancholy, envy, gluttony and anger – Simon Blackburn – Lust, 2004

Demand pulls supply

We who are liberal and progressive know that the poor are our equals in every sense except that of being equal to us – Lionel Trilling

I mix with the masses. We’re all just Me’s here. That Me over there. And that one there. That couple – him and her - the male me and the female me. We’re all me. It’s all me. I was shattered. It was Krystaknacht. But the clock is running in reverse. It’s spinning counterclockwise. All our animosities are getting erased. But I’m discovering new ones that I didn’t know about before. It’s impossible to erase them all. Caesar hates the Gauls and they hate him. Latin killed Caesar and now it’s killing me. But that’s ok, ‘cause it’s just me.

Out on the open sea with a breaking swell and the wind a notch too high for comfort, you are the loneliest fool in the world – Jonathan Raban – Driving Home, 2010 p188

There are lots of things
That I did not notice then
If I had seen them
Then I would have known them then
Don’t you see?

Sometime or another everything is seen for the first time
And everything can always be seen for the first time sometime
But one cannot see everything every time for the first time
Can’t you see?

And what remains unseen
Remains unnoticed
And anything not seen is not known
Neither this time nor any other time
And yet they may be seen
See!

Not everyone can see everything all the time
No one sees everything every time
Everyone sees every time
At least once one sees
Why can’t you see?

It’s the conscious mind that recalls a dream

As night approaches the last color to disappear is blue. If the moon is full on a cloudless night the blue hangs on. There is a tinge of yellow but it doesn’t mix with the blue to form green.  They each shade off into black. I go into town and have a Young’s Double Chocolate. The only person other than the chef’s wife and kid is a good-looking blond drinking wine.. She’s wearing as pink tube top. Here shoulders and neck are alabaster. I had a shower and I’ve shaved. I’ve done my laundry. I turn to her and …

What can I perform to come near her? / How hope to bear up, when she gives me / The fear-killing moves of her body? – James Dickey – The Whole Motion, 1992 p66

We need philosophers
            With their boots
            On the ground
All our information comes
            From paid informants
With eyes and ears
            On infomercials
Someone needs to be waterboarding
            The ontology
Someone must pilot the
            Epistemology
We need philosophers
            Who can kick ass

Thoughts come much faster when you can put them on paper  – William Cobbett

Tax: a return which is neither rent, wage, interest nor insurance

The obvious alternative to production overseen by technocrats was rule by “power-hungry party apparatchiks or avaricious financiers”. We have convinced ourselves that since the financiers won this debate that the better option since they have since so convincingly trained us “to celebrate avarice.”

Economics got turned on its head with globalization – from the enhancement of one group’s wealth at the expense of another group to a panacea for the enhancement of mankind – from specific wealth creation to abstract wealth creation. Will not exactly – as it turned out the group creating wealth at another group’s expense has shifted from a geographic distinction (national wealth) to class definition (a plutocracy).

Efficiency is usually achieved at the expense of resilience

The power to become habituated to his surroundings is a marked characteristic of mankind…We assume some of the most peculiar and temporary of our late advantages as natural, permanent and to be depended on, and we lay our plans accordingly – John Maynard Keynes – The Economic Consequences of the Peace, 1919

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